30 pounds too many

I am at the end of my rope.

I have been saying this for months but I haven't really done much about it.  I am tired of being overweight.  I don't feel happy, I don't feel healthy, and I certainly don't feel like myself.  I want to be in control again because I feel like it is currently not even in my reach.  It has been hard to keep weight off because first of all I am on limited physical activity due to my pathetic back.  Second, I am extremely bored during the day and to fill the void I eat.  All day.  It is completely unlike me but I've been obsessed with ice cream lately.  I have never had this problem and before this last pregnancy I didn't even have the slightest bit of a sweet tooth.  I liked chocolate when I was about to start my period but that was literally the only time I wanted a decadent dessert.  These days I am constantly piling two scoops of the most ridiculous flavors of ice cream on a cone.  A CONE.  Only people who eat way too much ice cream purchase cones from the grocery store.  Whether its smores, drumstick(this one is amazing), double fudge brownie, rocky road, coconut pineapple, plain old chocolate, half-baked, chunky monkey, or new york super fudge chunk flavor I am on it as soon as I feel like it is a decent time of the day to be eating dessert.  Some alcoholics try to wait until noon to have a drink so they can convince themselves like they have the slightest bit of control.  Ice creamaholics (like myself) do the same.

I need to get a handle on these unhealthy habits because I am only hurting myself.  I've been teetering between 160 and 165 for months.  I am hoping to be under 160 in a week.

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.